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| Kaila says: |
[31 Dec 2006|05:59pm] |
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Cursed Illusions (5:51:50 PM): i love you.
Finally. That stupid boy from Illinois fell for the girl from Florida. Now everything is right, this time I feel it. It took a loooooong time but.. I wouldn't have it any other way.
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| Kaila says: |
[12 Dec 2006|11:26pm] |
Wow, I never thought I'd have to say goodbye to Danielle.
I don't think I've ever cried so hard.. and this isn't all of it, either.
I'm a panzy.
But she's my sister.
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| Kaila says: |
[06 Dec 2006|06:47pm] |
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Wow, my house is pretty bare. The walls are all white and I'm sleeping on an air mattress now. I think I'm dying.
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| Kaila says: |
[01 Dec 2006|04:40pm] |
Dysmorphophobia- Fear of deformity.
I think I have that.
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| Kaila says: |
[29 Nov 2006|07:35pm] |
I need to get over myself.
Life's short. Let's not waste time.
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| Kaila says: |
[26 Nov 2006|11:04am] |
I smell like weed.
I think Steve asked me out last night..
..and I'm a little shocked. oo;
I've wanted this to happen for awhile..
..but there is a lot we need to talk about.
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| Kaila says: |
[24 Nov 2006|06:56am] |
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I GOT MY NEW LAPTOP!!!
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| Kaila says: |
[21 Nov 2006|03:02pm] |
I guess Scrubs Season 4 came out on DVD today! I want it soo bad.
Here are a few awesome quotes (please don't quote nazi me, they're not accurate).
Turk: Ya know Elliot, eventually you're gonna have to take off your sock.
Elliot: If I do then from now on whenever you guys look at me all you're going to think is Giant Gross-Foot. It's like that security guard with the hook for the hand, all anybody thinks when they look at him is Big Giant Afro.
Carla: [gasps] I do think that!
Dr. Kelso: Doctor Cox, did you get my memo about lab coats having to be worn at all times?
Dr. Cox: Yes I did, and at first I threw it away, but then I realized it wasn't a grand enough gesture. So I made a straw figurine of you, put my lab coat on it, with your memo in the pocket, and invited all the kids from the neighborhood over to light it on fire and hit it with sticks.
Dr. Cox: Here's the God's honest truth. You are what you eat, and you clearly went out and devoured a big fat guy, didn't you?
Molly: Perry, no one's pure evil! I mean, yes, some people have a hard outer shell, but inside, everybody has a creamy center.
Dr. Cox: There are plenty of people, here, on this particular planet who are hard on the outside and on the inside!
Molly: So they'd have more of a nougaty center?
Dr. Cox: Lady, people aren't chocolates. Do you know what they are mostly? Bastards. Bastard-coated bastards with bastard fillings. But I don't find them half as annoying as I find naive bubble-headed optimists who walk around vomiting sunshine.
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| kaila says: |
[20 Nov 2006|09:04am] |
oh and on saturday, we watched this ufc show with danielle, danny, steven, some other guy, another other guy, danny's little brother, chelsea, and.. uh.. me? yeah i think that's it. it was okay but i was ancy because i wanted to go home and get skeeted.
after that danielle, steven, and chelsea and i went to go get tamara, she had a g so we came back to my house and omg. i had so much fun with them. i feel bad because tamara had been clean for a year and a half or something like that and she told us that we unleashed a monster. o_o
i slept until 2pm on sunday lol
sunday i did nothiinggg. i stayed home and chilled.
it was great.
i can't wait for shopping on friday!
wading through crowds to get laptops will be fun.
i don't think i'm gonna get anything, everything's gonna be sold out by the time i get my check.
i get to call shiv today, i almost forgot. :]
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| kaila says: |
[20 Nov 2006|08:50am] |
wow this keyboard sucks so i'm not even going to try to type properly.
this weekend was fun, friday night danielle spent the night and kim came to chill for a little bit. that was so fun. i can't believe that was the last time i am going to see kim. i seriously love that girl, she was one of the only people that i never ever had a problem with and always admired. she was always there for me and was always there to help me out.
i remember when we both decided to quit everything, we made it for a couple of weeks and were scared to contact each other because we both had started again! then she called danielle one day while i was with her, she was looking for some xtc and i took the phone and was like WTF, she was all "sorry sorry!!" and I was like, "It's cool, I got my yayo right now." Rofl. then we talked just as much as we did before again.
i remember the night before i went to go see my sister's dad, i was all depressed and was going to visit her before i went to vero at her job. i got there and she already had a sub made for me and i was like.. dayum. i didn't even ask for one. what was even better was the little 'i heart kaila' sign she colored up and made for me. i still have it, it's up on my wall. lol.
i remember when we would waste our entire day driving around looking for some trees. lol. it was so fun, we'd smoke on indian river drive and purposely take roads that were completely out of our way just so we could smoke and turn the music up real loud. one night we were riding down indian river and we had techno music on, we were gonna go to the beach. we seriously thought we were in a video game because of the music and the way the road was. and the first time she told me she did x and how excited i was, i did it the next day. lol. she was like, noooo.. now you'll never stop! lol
i remember when she had a crush on both courtney and eric, lol. it was so cute, and when she wanted to talk to tamara and got so shy. i couldn't help but find her so adorable.
now's she's moving up to ohio with her man and i'm moving to indiana to start a new life.
these goodbyes are going to be so hard.
i miss shiv. this no communication thing sucks. omg, he has the craziest display picture on msn right now. his hair is all every which-way. aha, i love him.
i have good news, we might not be leaving until december 4/5 because of my grandmother's doctor appointments. yay! ^_^
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| kaila says: |
[18 Nov 2006|01:01pm] |
ufc tonight with danny and danielle!
hopefully.
yaayyy. :]
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| Kaila says: |
[18 Nov 2006|11:39am] |
Why are great guys..
attracted to dumb girls.
And then the girls who actually think..
have to act dumb to fall in love.
It's the smart girls
that never get the guy they want.
Then the great guys
think that girls are all the same.
You can't judge us and tell us we're all the same..
And that great girls don't like great guys.
If you haven't even given us a chance.
I've seen it. I've been through it.
And it sucks to see it all happen again.
I think this is why people go gay. Rofl.
Whatever.
Life is funny. I've been getting even more spiritual as of late.
I tried having a spiritual conversation with Danielle..
and she was too high to even understand what I was talking about. Rofl.
Oh well.
This morning before I went to work I was walking out to the van and in the driveway there was this dying mouse that was covered in ants. It was still kicking, it's tail had been cut off and it had wounds all over it. I felt so bad. I wanted to help it out, so I poured water on it. I was going to clean it off and everything but then Danielle and my mom were all, "Oohh, it's dying, leave it. That's gross." Made me feel super bad. ):
I am so tired this morning.
I need something challenging to focus on.
Yeah, so everyone knows I'm real big into wicca.
And I have recently discovered my totem, which makes me super happy.
And you all can fuck yourselves, seriously.
I've gotten so much negative feedback about my religion.
and I'm done with it. So intelligently converse with me or don't say anything at all.
I love journals. <3
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| Kaila says: |
[15 Nov 2006|09:37am] |
Well.
Fake love is alright, I guess.
Better then nothing.
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| Kaila says: |
[13 Nov 2006|08:47pm] |
Fuck love.
Fuck lies.
I love myself.
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[03 Nov 2006|07:55pm] |
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)
| ✓ I miss somebody right now. |
✓ I don't watch much TV these days. (I love House and Futurama though.) |
✓ I own lots of books. |
| ✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. |
✓ I love to play video games. |
✓ I've tried marijuana. |
| ✓ I've watched porn movies. |
✓ I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (Yeeaahh, but I've learned.) |
× I believe honesty is usually the best policy. |
| ✓ I curse sometimes. |
✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. |
× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. |
( it goes on... )
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| Kaila says: |
[02 Nov 2006|12:47pm] |
My mind has been sorta clouded lately, making it hard to think.
I know why, and it's sorta a good thing..
Cramps suck. I'll punch them in the face.
Not sick anymore, yay!
Twila, my aunt, and her child are coming to stay with us..
Just for a few days.
I keep hoping my mom will decide she doesn't want to move..
But at the same time, the escape sounds nice so I don't try too hard to stop her.
Christmas is around the corner, need to start saving!
Brother wants a 360, sister wants an ipod..
Don't know what mom and granny want yet. But damn, I need more moneyz. ):
I'll apply at cumby's tomorrow, two jobs ohsnap.
I want someone that will take my breath away.
Hope to meet you soooon.
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| Kaila says: |
[30 Oct 2006|06:25pm] |
I just got done leaving Shiv cute little picture comments. They're really just one big poem scattered across his images. Oh well. I think it's cute.. and truthful. =) I got the poem from Porsche's myspace, it was called "Long Distance Love" by Panda.. whoever Panda is.
But anyway.. yeah. My wisdom teeth are starting to bug the hell out of me. I keep thinking there's something in my mouth and it's just my wisdom teeth, I'm not used to them yet I guess.
Deadsy's getting so big.. when I first got her she was this itty bitty kitten. She was still insane, but she was small. Now she's almost the size of TJ, and she hasn't even lost her kitten teeth. I wuv her. :) I need to get her fixed very soon, I don't want her having babies.. I can only imagine how psycho they'd be. I don't want 340982304832 little Deadsy's running around.
I'm finally over my sickness I think, I called out of work twice last week but I'm working all of this week.. except for maybe tomorrow because my grandmother is going to the hospital.. and duuhhh, it's Halloween. Who would want to get a phone call on Halloween to talk about their job?
I have always thought that Halloween was my favorite time of year.. but for some reason, I'm looking forward to Christmas this year. Usually it's the other way around.. I can feel Halloween two months before October but this year I just havn't felt it at all. Christmas on the other hand, I'm looking forward to.
Now I know I'm not Christian, but Holidays arn't really about religion for me.. they're about family and friends and appreciating them.
My mom made turkey last night.. I was like, "Why on earth would you cook a turkey when Thanksgiving is next month?" Lol, we're gonna be so turkeyed out.
Well, that's pretty much it. Steve and I have been talking a lot lately.. I had this crazy dream about him last night. Only, he wasn't really him.. he was more like.. Michael (childhood best friend). It was awkward.
♥ Kaila.
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| Kaila says: |
[26 Oct 2006|04:12pm] |
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I can't help but feel like shit everytime I talk to Jon. I've never been such a bitch to anyone in my life and I seriously deserve to be shot for the way I've broken his heart. Someone rip my eyes out, plz.
And Ashley, if you're still stalking my livejournal, get a life and fuck off.
Brian is the shit, and if you're a hot girl you should make love to him or show him naked pictures if you're too far.
Well. Shiv is still amazing and keeps me insanely happy. There's this ho that Brian said I might have to worry about though.. I don't think I'm too worried, but yeah. I don't know how to explain it so I won't.
Halloween is coming soon and I don't even have a costume yet. I wanted to be a pirate but oh well.
I don't even know if I'm going to a Halloween party this year.
My brother is scared that my sister is going to beat him up tonight. He's such a panzy. He's scared and yet he still calls her a fatass and makes fun of her. Psh. He asked me to say something to her and protect him, and then he said I looked like a horse. Wtf. I'll help her kick his ass..
I am angry today, I don't know why.
Danielle isn't here yet and she usually is when we have to go to work together. She's not answering her phone either.. something's up.
Gunbound is fun.
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| Kaila says: |
[16 Oct 2006|03:23pm] |
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Hello journal. I really do not have much to say. I went to the gyno today, got a better (and cheaper!) form of birth control. She said that my not eating might have something to do with why I've been irregular, sooo.. I'm making it a new goal to eat three times a day. Very small meals, but yeah.
I've actually gained weight by not eating and it sucks. I just feel a hell of a lot better about myself when I don't eat, so I guess that's why I do it. I really need to break the habit.
My cell phone has been acting so wonky. It randomly turns off, opens messages and rings/lights up. It's a good thing I'm moving at the end of the month.. I need to find a job as soon as I can so I can get T mobile. I can not live without a cell phone ever, ever again.
Isaac said that when he gets his own apartment he'd let me move in with him. I'm sure when I move back I could get my job at TWI again. While I'm away I figure I'll go ahead and get my GED since I have nothing else to do while I'm up there.. maybe even hold off on finding a job there until I get my GED that way I get it for sure. Really the only reason why I havn't got it is because I don't want to lose my job to my school schedule.
I really have no idea what I'm going to do after I get back to Florida. Well, other than.. party.. work.. party.. work and the occassional sleep. Meh. I need to seriously sit down and think about what I'm going to do.
I've come to the conclusion that everything in life really does happen for a reason and there is always going to be a balance of good and bad in your life. This is the case with money, love, happiness, and everything else you encounter in your life. I always thought I understood it before, but I think it finally clicked in my head a couple nights ago. I actually tried to overdose myself a, but it was my own selfish and self-hateful thoughts that brought the depression upon me. Once I cleansed my soul and started being a lot less selfish everything got better for me, but I learned a lot by being that depressed.. and also, from being that depressed I was able to get a lot closer to and old friend I thought I had lost..
I bought a book on wicca the other day. It's written by a woman who isn't a wiccan, ironically. I didn't realize until after I started reading it but it's a good thing, actually. I get to see what the outside opinion on it is by someone who isn't a moron, lol. I'm in love with my religion. It's insane.. with all of the other religions I was pretty much like.. eh. With this one, I actually truely admire it.
Well, my post is getting kinda long..
I'm in love again, but this time I'm going to keep the story to myself. I really care too much about this one to be poisoned by everyone's thoughts.
Take care, ♥ Kaila.
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